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I’ve always carried pain well,

you could hardly see it in my eyes because it hides prominently with all the suppressed,

but in this moment it is over bearing,

because it’s not about me right now,

it’s about you,

the strongest person I know,

facing something serious on time,

but the timing doesn’t make it less scary on this end,

all I can think about is not thinking about the intrusive thoughts because you mean so much to me,

no amount of tears can help my heart understand why it feels so heavy and full at the same time,

there’s so much love there,

Saturdays,

they were always our days,

because even if you were working and I was watching life through the window of your pick up,

I didn't feel alone,

because I knew you were working hard for my dreams,

and I need you to know,

those days never felt empty because you always filled them with your smile,

I love you

and I admire how brave you are,

as I watch you encounter something so frightening,

with grace; you will continue to make empty spaces feel full with your smile.