The flowers I never gave
Sometimes I regret not giving her any of her flowers, or the chance to say her grace but then I remember…
I remember her inability to flower anybody but herself,
the way she lies most of the time to manipulate any and all situations,
I remember she tells more than little white lies, you know? the kind that you remember but, instead she prefers a multitude of lies,
the kind that she can not keep track of and hurts everyone she loves,
I remember she does not know how to apologize without a motive to do so,
and to the dismay of many she will only say sorry for something of a selfish nature,
But I also remember she always packed my favorite snacks when I was young and that made my inner child feel seen. No matter how in a hurry we were she always packed something.
I remember her.
I love her.
So when I think of giving her flowers, that’s who I’m thinking of.
That’s who I miss.
And if I could talk to her I would tell her that I wish she never left because she took away more than just someone who packed me all my favorite snacks.
I say all of this because life was not kind to her but she was to little me, in moments, but it counts.
So I wish I could give her flowers because she didn’t know everything but, she loved me hard and a part of me wishes she could have heard that.
So maybe these are her flowers.